You Found Me

Every now and then I hear a song that hits me hard, a song that makes me think someone got into my head and took the words right from me. "You Found Me" by The Fray is just such a song, it's exactly how I felt when I lost my Mom. I was very angry with God and a wonderful Lesbian Pastor told me to go ahead and tell God that, to feel free to yell at Him, "He can take it" she said. I asked Him over and over again where he was. This is such an incredible song.

I found God

On the corner of First and Amistad

Where the west

Was all but won

All alone

Smoking his last cigarette

I said, "Where you been?"

He said, "Ask anything".

Where were you

When everything was falling apart?

All my days

Were spent by the telephone

It never rang

And all I needed was a call

It never came

To the corner of First and Amistad

Lost and insecure

You found me, you found me

Lyin' on the floor

Surrounded, surrounded

Why'd you have to wait?

Where were you? Where were you?

Just a little late

You found me, you found me

In the end

Everyone ends up alone

Losing her

The only one who's ever known

Who I am

Who I'm not, who I wanna be

No way to know

How long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure

You found me, you found me

Lyin' on the floor

Surrounded, surrounded

Why'd you have to wait?

Where were you? Where were you?

Just a little late

You found me, you found me

Early morning

The city breaks

I've been callin'

For years and years and years and years

And you never left me no messages

Ya never send me no letters

You got some kinda nerve

Taking all my world

Lost and insecure

You found me, you found me

Lyin' on the floor

Where were you? Where were you?

Lost and insecure

You found me, you found me

Lyin' on the floor

Surrounded, surrounded

Why'd you have to wait?

Where were you? Where were you?

Just a little late

You found me, you found me

Why'd you have to wait?

To find me, to find me

Friday, June 12th

I just noticed that I never did put up a Buffalo Pride post, but it was mostly a story in photos anyway. I put those on my Facebook page so I won't bother to rehash it in words here.

Finally at Friday after a VERY busy workweek! Wednesday and Thursday were definitely trying and they were both incredibly long days. The "big" meeting in Rochester on Wednesday morning was brutal, I had to be there at 8 which necessitated getting up at 5:15, that wasn't fun. Yesterday started with another 8 meeting, but this one was in downtown Buffalo. Yesterday was a day full of difficult union meetings, making it very tense as things got nastier and more personal by the ass holes in the union. I'm glad I wasn't the "front man" representing management, if I was it would have been very different because I won't take their shit. Of course no one from their useless union even bothered to show up, although I feel very sorry for the 30 staff in that group, only they have the power to get rid of those losers who are supposed to be representing them.

I was SO tired yesterday that at 4 I stumbled out of the Bflo office and headed home. I stopped at the liquor store on the way home and got some of my favorite Three Olives Grape Vodka, I also picked up some orange gin. I came home and had a nice long drink. John came over and we went to Anderson's for beef on wick and custard. 

Today I spent most of my day at the Univera office, I always enjoy the dynamics of the people who work there so it wasn't a terrible way to wrap up a very busy week. John is on his way over now and we'll probably go out to eat...again! I haven't been cooking nearly as much as I used to, just too tired once I get home. Allentown weekend here, hoping to go to that. I don't think I've gone in the last couple of years, so we shall see.

Saturday, June 6th

Went shopping with Ed this morning. He needed a suit, dress shirts and ties, right up my alley and something I've been doing a lot of myself. We went to The Galleria and of course I had to pick up a couple shirts and pants, can't resist those JCP sales. It was fun just wandering around shopping and chatting, we went to Jack Astor's for lunch.

After the mall, I went home and did some dreaded yard work. I had to cut the law, do the trimming and some weeding. Things are starting to fill in and the petunias are very purple! The yard looks really nice, nicer than it has in my past years here, it's a lot of work and I still do NOT enjoy it one bit!

John cooked out on the grill for dinner and we had a quiet night watching Detroit spank the Pen's 5 to zip, go Red Wings! Tomorrow is the Buffalo Pride celebration and parade, we're going just not sure if we're going to march with The Buffalo Bears or not, supposed to rain, that would suck. The Bear's after party at Dennis Long's house is usually a good time so we'll play it by ear I guess. 

I've been thinking about joining The Village Glen, might go there after work on Monday to check it out. I've always wanted to join and I sure do miss tennis so we'll see what I end up doing. 

Long Overdue Memorial Day

Work has kept me so busy that when I get home I'm exhausted and haven't had any time to even reflect on what I've been doing. I've been trying to 

get to bed at a reasonable time since I've been getting to work so early. Things are still going well at work, I think it's a perfect match for me at this point in my career.

Anyway, we decided to have a small gathering for Memorial Day. It was supposed to be a relatively small gathering, but it ended up being about 20 people. We had fun, food, drinks, and a few laughs. Here it is in some photos.